On Your Knees

On Your Knees

I always tell new students that you must come to this work “on your knees,” which connotes the level of surrender and humility required for a seeker to begin to consciously, and successfully, walk their spiritual path. And, at some point along the way, I must also give my students the understanding that not only do you have to come to it on your knees, but that this work will bring you to your knees, as well.

I’ve witnessed a lot of that this past month.

You see, there comes a time when much of the basic work is behind you. You have surrendered enough to enable you to begin the dissolution process in earnest and you have witnessed profound changes in your inner/outer worlds. This is when the path begins to climb steadily, becoming increasingly more precarious in incline as you venture forward.

This work will challenge everything you believe in and everything you are attached to…and I do mean EVERYTHING.

Jobs, friends, families, spouses, homes, material possessions, your hopes and dreams…there is nothing off limits when it comes to your spiritual liberation.

When I explain to seekers that it takes great courage and strength to do this level of work, I am convinced they think I’m kidding or being overly dramatic. That is, until they have their own experience of bringing brought to their knees.

When you don’t do your inner work, you must live the lessons out in the physical, which is hard enough. No one wants to lose a job, or their possessions, or the love of friends and family. Walking through each of these experiences takes courage and humility because you must recognize that you brought it on yourself and that the experience is intended to further your spiritual growth. When utilized, the outer experience leads to inner growth.

But, there is a much scarier and trying proposition. That is, to step up to plate and do the inner work before it is forced on you, which can then lead to new outer experiences. What does that look like? It looks like the student who becomes so committed to seeing through all of it that they are not only willing, but proactively begin searching for all the areas where they still function from the patterning, and then take measures to stop it.

This invariably results in students who must make very tough choices. Choices that leave the personal self begging for another chance, screaming to be heard, and working overtime to justify why you should listen and agree. Why? Because in order to transcend the life/death cycle, you can’t carry dysfunctional attitudes and ways of functioning in the world with you.

The mind is so incredibly subtle, that most of your dysfunctional behavior gets covered over and hidden from your own sight. It takes great skill to go in, at an unconscious level, and root out what still binds you. But do it, you must. And you will cry until your tears run dry, you will punch pillows and stomp your feet, you will beg Spirit to change things so you don’t have to do what your Knowing has shown you that you must.

And then, you will surrender to your heart, to your Knowing, to God within, and you will move forward from the place of right action into the void of the unknown…

…on your knees.



Death and Rebirth

Death and Rebirth


Wow, what a crazy month November was! After having the very strong energetics of what was coming up for the collective show up in my outer world in October, I gave my students fair warning that the energies were on their way. And then I watched as some of my students were challenged to move through very difficult personal circumstances that the world had presented them. And, later in the month, I even had a hand in setting up our own Core Council for some “ego drama” because it was time for another shift to take place within our organization.

Seekers are always searching for the big “a-ha” moment, looking for a huge shift to be experienced that impacts and changes their awareness of the world forever. Those moments do occasionally happen, but more often than not, it is a gradual process, filled with choices made by heart, which expand consciousness, mixed with choices made by the ego, which contract it.

But each time the student makes a choice from heart and experiences the impact of that choice, a little piece of the personal self falls away…sometimes for a short time, and sometimes permanently. So, the ego dies, little by little as the greater, divine will carries the seeker through each life decision.

In meditation, it is the same. Layers of identified consciousness are released, or thrown off, during deep meditation. Dissolution takes place and the personal self reforms after the meditation ends, but it reforms from a new place. And, depending on how deep the meditation, and how long the seeker is able to remain in that refined state, the reforming of the personal self can be minimal or truly transformative. So, you meditate every day and every day there is a type of death and rebirth happening.

And in the outside world…the projection of the collective unconscious…you experience constant death and rebirth through interpersonal relationships. Things get pushed to the surface, the opportunity for growth is presented, and you are given the choice to work together through the death of the old and rebirth into something new and wonderful, or to hang on to what’s been comfortable and ego-driven , either running or pushing away the potential gift of growth and wisdom through adversity.

To be “born again in Christ” is not just terminology from a certain aspect of Christian religion. It is every true seeker’s ultimate goal. It serves to discard the chains that bind, dying to the identification with the personal self, and to step forward from the reawakened level of awareness that you are the Christ…then, now and forever. Amen.

May you all have a blessed month, full of love, respect and honor for the Christ within all people on this Earth.